I met this female a while back (way before I had a girlfriend). When I first met her she was nothing short of amazing. Into hip-hop, dared to be different, her sense of humor matched mine and all. We hit it off great and I was slowly starting to fall. I mean this chick was feeling da kid to no end. She liked my songs and loved my beats. she was super supportive and did her thing as a writer when she was inspired.
I could not have asked for a seemingly more perfect match right? Yeah, well I sure thought so. Anyway, as I'm sure all of you know, I'm mad focused on my career as a musician so with me being the honest and blunt guy that I can be at times, I told her about my (at the time) hectic schedule and the long laundry list of goals that I was trying to accomplish with my music. I then went on to tell her that I don't think me getting into a relationship would be the best idea because I would not be able to dedicate the amount of time that's needed to give her the attention that our potential relationship, better yet she deserves. She went on to say that she understood and fully supports me and wants to be my friend who was there when I needed her to be and more.
After having that convo I started celebrating mentally! YEEEAH niggah! Victory for The Verbal Arteest ma phucka! I finally found someone who's willing to take it slow with me and reap the benefits of me being the best boyfriend that I can be once my life becomes a little more stable.
Two or so visits to my condo later she asked me out in so many words...
I was taken aback by the question because I thought we were on the same page. If she had a problem with our "status" then why would didn't she speak up two weeks ago? I reverted back to explaining my situation over again and reitteratin the fact that I really like but I'm going to need patience. She claimed she understood but started to fall back HEAVY! Ignoring texts and giving cold shoulders. All I could remember thinking was "damn I should've bought that thermal set I saw at walmart the other day."
Eventually we talked it over and realized that ignoring each other is foolish. We then started talking again. All was good. But that peaceful period was short lived because out of no where she started giving me the cold shoulder yet again. This time it was for months! All the while I read her weekly, sometimes DAILY, complaints and ramblings about how horrible her dating life is. Aggravation set in and I found myself at my slow ass computer cussing out whatever male name that came across my screen she was crying over at the time. I got fed up and we had another argument.
Kinda Side note-
You know its so funny how social networking and the internet has changed the way we go about maintaining friendships and romance. Just a click and a niggah is stuck in blue-balls hell. On the flip: just it takes just one button and your knight in shining armor can turn into a complete and utter dirty ass hole.
I was deleted from her twitter, facebook and myspace. LOW BLOW trick! That same day we reconciled our differences and she explained to me that she was tired of guys she really liked permanently placing her in the "friend lane" and refused to take it anymore.
What could I tell her at this point? What was I to put her at ease with? The same speech (for lack of better words) that I gave her months earlier about how she was soooo close but just needed to let me handle my work so that I can give her all of me? Nah she JUST said that she wasn trying to hear any ish like that.
"With one leg left now I'm hopping around crippled/ So I took out my pocket knife and sliced off her right nipple" -Eminem I don't why but I just felt like quoting those two bars lol...I guess it can relate because even tho I wanted her to stay and ride it out with me (that's what she said), she refused. That's my leg getting ripped off. So I in turn decided to recoil and in a sense sliced off her right nipple by refusing to budge on my terms. Bull headed I know but I guess when you have a mate that's unwilling to compromise for the greater good your hand is forced.
We fell off like we always do until I hit her up just to check up on her and see what was going on. She wasted no time letting me know that she was pissed at me for taking so long to contact her YES I was wrong and apologized like 3 or 4 times throughout the course of our convo for it. I even explained to her that my blackberry was out of commission at the time leaving me with no reminder to call her but she was beyond pissed and didn't wanna hear that because, after all she did call me on mine.
The convo ended with both of us wishing each other the best in our careers and leaving it at that. I'll still admire her from afar and have nothing but respect for her. However any thought of "us" have to go because, after all she chose for things to be that way in the end.
Even though she had refused to, a special someone did wait it out and reap the benefits that I had to offer her. I am so happy that I went out with her and I love her to death because she's more than just a typical chick to me.
I guess I'm writing all of this to say those who are going through relationship drama to HOLD ON! Do NOT settle. Your mate will come when the times right
That's it for now with y'all stankin asses
-Da Vinci the Verbal Arteest
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